Wednesday, April 30, 2014
#438
I'm so tired of eczema.I am so sick of it, my skin not being able to be healthy and hydrated without using moisturiser everyday.
And even then the moisturiser makes me itch.
And the holes on my feet continue to worsen.
My eczema has been really bad recently...
Can't even imagine how i managed to get my feet into the condition it was during etiquette dinner, free of holes at least.
Eczema is too frustrating.
It's a genetic disease (yes it is there are more and more evidences), and it doesn't even have any known cure yet. All i can do is put moisturiser everyday and hope it gets well. Someday.
And all because of this i can only wear covered shoes with socks on. I'm pretty much stuck with sneakers or boots unless my skin condition improves.
(on a side note i ordered these really nice boots ♥)
The worst thing is that though my feet suffers from it the worst, my legs and arms are also really dry pretty much all the time ugh.
Not to mention my nails are really short because i have to keep cutting them. (my thumbnails are spared because i don't really use my thumbs to scratch =.=)
Resorted to applying honey tonight... hoping it'll get better tomorrow...
I need to improve my skin condition before my Japan trip...
Late night rant.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
#437
Got back math paper II today... don't know how i should feel about this lol.
I did better for chem exam than math exam by 3% wtf. It is impossible that my chem is better than my math!
Somehow i just can't do well in math exams :S (that time when i got 100 for math exam in primary 5 HAHAHA)
Well, hoping i didn't do that badly for the stats poster...
I really need at least an A for math ugh. Or my CAP this sem will seriously die.
My CA should be A+... but my exam was a B+ :C
I recalculated for dev bio... Hmm. If i get 65% for the project proposal, i can get a B+ overall.
But to get an A- overall i have to get 90% what the hell =.=
Okay at least my dev bio gpa won't completely die :S
I feel like my eng gpa will though T~T
That stupid 2nd AQ completely screwed up my eng grade...
Well, this sem is pretty much over already.
Next sem's the last leg and it's my last chance to pull my grad CAP up to a distinction T_T
Also hoping that taking the PPV module and chinese out will make my CAP look better hahaha.
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
#436
Got back our chem scripts today... I did better than i had expected LOL.
Close to A- overall for the exam!
If an A grade for the assignments mean 100% then i may be able to get an A for chem!!
Hopefully it is. Praying very hard it is.
Because dev bio and english (which are freaking CORE modules) are gonna kill my CAP seriously.
Started calculating my subject GPAs...
My dev bio grade is gonna be like C+/B-... so far the average grade is only a B-...
Screw this module man.
Their expectations are way too high for a module that is only 4 months long!
And english.
I got the worst grade ever in my life for the 2nd AQ.
Screw politics.
Really praying that i get a 5.0 for math. Got 4.8 last sem...
But it seems difficult seeing that i only got a B+ for the MCQ section of the exam...
Getting back section II tmr. There's nothing i can do about my marks now but hopefully i did well.
Honestly, if i'm only aiming for the Japanese Studies course in NUS... my grades should be fine i think?
Still doesn't keep me from being depressed though.
Hearing the people around me discussing about their grades... like "i think i should be able to get 4.5 for xxx" and me going "my CAP isn't even 4.0"
I really feel like turning my back on all this crap and just not care anymore.
But i can't.
I can't, and it's killing me.
日本で留学したいよ。
Sunday, April 20, 2014
#435: Mixed feelings
FINALLY we finished the dev bio proposal and submitted it gosh. It's almost 1 week late i think ><
Still thinking if i should tell Dr Goh about the imbalanced work done... this shouldn't be a system where these kind of things are hard to say...
Went for the pre-departure meeting for the japan trip today.
It was quite awkward, to be honest. The only person i /kind of/ know is Mindy :S
Though i realised i'm not actually really shy, just that i'm a super passive person who won't reach out to talk to other people whoops.
I wanted to talk to Mindy though ><
I don't know how am i supposed to feel about this trip now...
More than half are from China... And not many are actually considering going to a Japan uni...
They don't even seem to be interested in pop culture like anime/manga/j-music??
And yet they went on this trip because they want to go to Japan?? Are they going for the food??
Meh.
I don't wanna listen to more Chinese than Japanese when i'm in Japan =.=
Proper exchange programs are better after all...
Still looking forward to the trip, though not as much as before!
I hope my birthday turns out well...
Looks like it's the people who make or break trips...
I wanna speak Japanese in Japan GDI. /exasperated/
Right now i'm just heck-caring the exams hahaha. Not like there are a lot to worry about.
Though eng AQ IS something quite worrying... Only eng exam and AP Stats left!
Now i'm just concentrating on JLPT N2 haha.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
#434
Chem AP mock down and tomorrow's math AP mock huh.Chem... wasn't good. It was bad.
Been trying to study math today but kind of failing haha. Did the mcq revision paper and did pretty well.
I feel like there isn't much for me to study orz... anyway i'm studying last year's stuff now. while munching on strawberry Pocky :DD
Gonna have some ICE CREAM WAFFLES tomorrow after math!! Celebrating already even before the actual APs and english HAHA.
Funny thing is that currently my "study table" (which is actually my older sis' tuition table) has more Japanese books than math stuff LOL.
Starting to regret not starting on the Shin Kanzen Master N2 Grammar book earlier when i already had it lying around...
Borrowed the vocab book from school library and just going through it very fast because my vocab's pretty much fine for N2 though there are still some words i don't know in the book :S
My listening is somehow fine even though i don't work on it much?? Even though my grammar sucks?? Maybe because they lower the standards of the contents for listening? hahaha.
Reminds me of Dec 2012 when i took the JLPT N4 and thought i wouldn't do well for listening... i ended up getting full marks lol.
Really need to work on my grammar :S
There are way too many similar grammar forms D:
Craving for ramennnnnnnn :C